Last day of September :)

Yup~ today is the last day of September ALREADY~ time flieeeeees! Haha~ waiting for my "paid" to process ... Somehow I'm afraid of the money, cause once it comes, it will be gone very soon ... Sad life~


Today I woke up early at about 09:00am plus ... Sigh~ I meant to go back to sleep after feeding Javier but MIL brought Jerald out of her room cause she wanted to wash things ... So I decided not to sleep and as I know that she wanted to do the laundry as well ...

So I force myself to accompany Jerald, I on the TV and find "Robotcar Poli" cartoon from YouTube :)


He was having fun as well~ he was happy and dancing when I switch to the cartoon ^,^ hehe funny boy~ ❤️❤️❤️


Have our dinner at after 08:00pm :) I was so hungry haha don't know why ... Wanted to Thank MIL for always feeding me dinner hahaha~ I'm gaining weight and getting fatter OMG~ stress!!! 

Hehe~ MIL gave Jerald a slice of oranges, he lick for a few times and then squeeze it~ after that throw it on the floor! Oh god~ haha 

Tiring day ...

Feeling very tired today ... Didn't get to sleep well although I have 4 to 5 hours of sleep :( just don't know why I can't sleep well ... My mind just won't shut off to sleep haha

Hubby today working stock take, might be coming home at tomorrow morning !? But I hope not :( and tomorrow hubby is working night shift again ... I miss you so much! Hubby~ ❤️


Hubby yesterday reached home after 06:00pm, really glad that he's home early :) because he haven been sleeping for almost two days :( poor thing! So I let hubby rest for a while after he took a shower ...

 
Once dinner is ready I wake hubby up :) poor hubby~ I love you ❤️❤️❤️ yup~ MIL always cook hubby's favorite food when hubby's home for dinner :) yummy~

Once we all done with dinner hubby went back to sleep :)


Once again~ during midnight, Javier's giving me a hard time :( sighhhh~ I seriously have no idea why and what happened :( kept crying, feed him milk also crying :( Sighhhh~ some more I'm all alone ... Sad

Really hope Javier will get better and don't cry so much during midnight. I'm really getting so tired, I'm dying if this kind of situation continue :( sad~

Waiting~

Currently waiting for my hubby to come home :) missing him so much and worry about him ... He didn't sleep for more and a day already, poor hubby! ❤️❤️❤️


Throwback selfie with Jerald in the afternoon before he go for bed and before I shower Javier ... Hehe ❤️❤️❤️

I went for shower once I feed Javier and he fall asleep straight :)


Hehe one more throwback photo of Jerald in the afternoon about 3pm plus just now ^,^ ❤️ I was having some Butterhead Lettuce and Cherry Tomato, I brought it to Jerald and his reactions was "wahhhh~" ...

He thought it's something that he could eat and something taste awesome haha funny boy~ so he took the cherry tomato and I guess he thought it's something sweet like chocolate or maybe biscuit hehe

My cute and funny boy always ❤️❤️❤️

What's wrong ???


Now you all could understands how I feel when I'm pregnant with Javier ... I still go for work, go out at about 1pm plus then reach home passed 10:30pm ... I still need to shower and settle down after that put Jerald to sleep ... Some time I feel hungry still unable to get a chance to eat but put Jerald for bed first ...so almost every day I get to sleep passed 1am ...

Now you told me that you're really tired and unwell ok I understand cause I experience before ... I also mention that I midnight also wake up and feed Javier, you told me that you wake up early at 6 or 7am and I still can sleep ...


Haha are you joking me !??? I woke up at midnight two to three times till morning 9 or 10am then able to sleep well ... By then when the time I fall asleep Jerald wake up and disturb ... 

Imagine I sleeps at 1 or 2am EVERY SINGLE DAY? And wake up every two to three hours ? EVERY SINGLE DAY ... You wanted to compare who sleeps the most or rest more isn't it ???


Ok! Now~ come I talk about it ...

You go to bed at about 1:30am the latest maybe as sometimes Jerald delay ... Then you able to sleep through the whole night till 6 or 7am, sometime 8am ... But midnight wake up to go toilet and pee ...

So you're able to sleep roughly about 5 to 6 hours DAILY ! Then how bout me ??? If I sleep at 2am the most and woke up at 4:30am at least ( I did see the time when every time Javier wake up and drink milk) 


Once done feeding I sleep back at about nearly 6am, which the time you get to wake up ... Then after two to three hour again I have to wake up and feed Javier ... So overall I only get to sleep for 3 to 4 hours DAILY !!!

SPEECHLESS !!! Really~ I'm speechless ...

Most of the time ... Now I wanted to complain, wanted to comment, wanted to get upset or even mad at every single thing ... It's just because some people have no consideration, I'm suffering and no one could ever understands ! 


I keep telling myself ~ ... Don't ever talk back, RESPECT the elderly NO MATTER WHAT, be kind in whatever the situation is, be understanding and help out ... 

I knew they are elderly like to talk and nag or even say things that we 20s and 30s people doesn't like to hear ... And even more they are my husband parents, which I have to shut up and do nothing. Just to see them being like this everyday, talking to me like this every day ...


I just need some simple respect that's all and the most PEACE ! I don't ask for more ...

Don't worry I will always keep my promise not to show my temper, my stupid attitude, keep all the comments to myself, one eyes open and one eyes close, one ear in and one ear out ... 


Happy ending ...


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No privacy and no respect for me ...


I'm fine being treated this way since I married over ? Yup~ since I pregnant with my second boy, I have already knew how the life will be like in the future ...

I don't ask for more, I don't question or even comment anything, I don't show my temper easily... 


What I need is RESPECT! UNDERSTANDING! And also concern from the people I love ~ ... Is that so difficult ??? 

I don't care whether is purposely or not, cause it have already hurts me! Hurts me so deeply that I can't imagine... Especially when I was pregnant with Javier, I was treated like a big tummy crazy women ? Or maybe I think too much ...


Doesn't you all know that pregnant lady is very tiring no matter what or when ever she does nothing also feels tired... And yet I still have to go for work and then reach home being treated like nothing? Just a piece of shit ...

I don't mind going out for work cause we need cash but ... When you said that I didn't earn any money or even didn't earn much to help your son and this family? I was totally speechless because I can't BELIEVE that you could said such an EVIL thing to me?


I give birth to two grandson for your family, for your next generation! And yet you said this kind of thing to me? I wonder what I was doing when I'm pregnant ... I go out for work you think I go out and have fun? I work so hard and nobody even appreciate me in this house... And only maybe my husband ...

Most of the time I really don't understand what's the point of staying together ...  But when every time I think of leaving this hell place, my mind will always pop out of MY HUSBAND! 


I always think for this family, give in for everyone, respect to all, help in the house and yet in the end I'm the one who got suffer just to see everyone smiling and having a happy family ... Am I stupid? Or an idiot? ... 

To me~ family always came in first in my heart! No matter where I go, my heart will always think of my home and family ... This is me~
 

Lastly I wanted to said ... I never regret marrying over to this family because we are fated to be family ... So I will be a better person for creating a happy family to everyone ... I don't mind suffer or even tired ... This is what I like for being  marriage life! STAY STRONG~ ❤️


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God bless ~



May god please bless my two dearest son~ to be safe, be a good boy, be healthy always and eat well always ...

I really can't accept when I requested people to take note of some thing but yet they still always take it for granted ... How can I not be so mad about it!? It always making me so fed up~ I really don't understands why ... 

I'm struggling to survive... Forcing myself being not the way I am ... Heartbroken to see how my son being taken care by how I doesn't wanted to ... 

I understands that everyone have their ways of looking after and taking care of children. BUT! When I'm the mother of the kids I HAVE THE RIGHTS~ to request and comment what is right and what is wrong. What you should and what you shouldn't !? 

I'm speechless ........... TOTALLY~

My first meal of the day ...


Yup~ my first meal of the day, Maggie meeeeee! Lol~ somehow looks like Wanton Mee? Haha! Nope~ I put Siew Mai into the instant noodle and cooked together :) and the SiewMai have already expired one day ago hahaha 

Have my noodle at about 01:30pm... Lucky I eat it when I have already feed Javier if not I have to feed him while eating half way haha


Morning wake up seeing my Javier sleeping so soundly :) ❤️❤️❤️ wish he could behave this way everyday and every night haha cause when he cry and when feeding him also crying, I really don't know what else I can do...

Hello~ Afternoon !

Good afternoon~ the time is 02:00pm now ... Time really flies~ sighhhhhh! Yesterday midnight Javier gave me and hubby a hard time :( so as Jerald cause in laws want to sleep quite early at about 10.30pm? She not feeling well ... But she's better now, just that she's lack of sleep and rest ...

So when yesterday hubby reached home, think at about 10:00pm plus? He came into the room and talk to me :) but I was feeding Javier and settling Javier ... 


Me and hubby didn't get to have our dinner till almost midnight time because of Javier ... Don't know what happened to him kept crying and also while feeding him :(

Feel so sad and fed up ... But I gave him pacifier cause both me and hubby were so hungry. I quickly go heat up all the food and prepare for hubby ... I ate a fast one cause Javier is crying again ...

So in the end hubby settle Javier for me cause I wash the plate and etc plus I'm already very tired and energy low ... Both of my legs and arms are feeling weak :(


But sad that hubby can't have his nap or even take a rest :( sorry hubby~ and thank you for all the concern, all your love ❤️❤️❤️ hubby went out for work at about 04:00am plus :( cause his store having some checking ...

Hope hubby will be able to go home early today ! ❤️❤️❤️ I LOVE YOU~ hubby~ 

Energy low ... TIRED

Feeling tired ... So so tired :( but I can't help myself~ sighhhhh~ I'm really breaking down soon :( 

MIL went to take a nap at around 02:00pm plus because she's not feeling well ... Feeling dizzy since morning she wake up ... MIL woke up at about 04:00pm and then for a while she went back to take a nap again ... meanwhile I was looking after Jerald and also feeding Javier :( yup~ all along I'm the one who's doing the nanny job, I'm fine with it cause it's my job ...


It's ok I don't mind ... They are my kids no matter how tired I will still take good care of them ... No matter how starve I am I will still always feed my kids first...


No matter how bad my headache is I will still play with my kids and feed them well. Take real good care of them ... Cause nobody else will do for me in this house ... 

There's no big deal to wash clothes, cook, wipe the floor ... Looking after children is more responsibility, more effort, more energy ... House work can always be delay but looking after and taking care of kids will always be in the first place...

No offend ... Just saying LOL

Heavy rain on Monday blueeeee ^.^


Currently having heavy rain now ... Has been raining since before 06:00pm? Hmmm and the time now is 06:55pm :) cooling weather, just nice for me which I need to cool down ... 

Having a bad emotional since afternoon... Sigh~ doesn't want to mention here~ cause it always reminds me of bad and sad things! It really hurts no matter what ...


In the afternoon at about 01:00pm plus I feed Jerald the Rainbow cake that my beloved sister deliver to me yesterday haha ❤️ I love the cake :) taste not bad actually haha~ but the whipped cream it's slightly a little too much ...


McCafe's upcoming promotion, new Rainbow cake, cost $4.95 ... And the RED VELVET Drinks! Is bacccccck ^,^ omgggg~ I want drink it hehe

I'm considering whether i want to buy the rainbow cake for Jerald birthday next month :) hehe~ shall discuss with hubby haha

I daring to post for the McCafe upcoming promotion it's because no one is viewing my blog I guess... Only sister and hubby reads my blog, no one else's ? Hahaha~

Hazeeeeee~ ...


Once again the PSI goes up ... Yup~ the haze is coming again :( so sad! Really wish all people who did this will be arrested and charge by law ! It's really destroying the earth and damaging all the humans health !

May god bless us~ really wish all of this will be over soon and no more haze in future :(

Monday blueeee?


Hello~ good morning to me, although the time is reaching noon soon ... having headache, very bad headache. Didn't get to sleep much :( 

Naughty Jerald ❤️ came into the room and find me while I'm sleeping ... He went to take a low chair and open the door while hubby is preparing for work in the toilet. I was sleeping but I didn't sleep soundly cause Jerald keep making noise :(


Sighhhhh~ only slept less than four hours :( cause Javier is really giving me a hard time ... Woke up at nearly 4:00am till almost 7am than fall asleep... I prefer day than night... 


Same goes to hubby, he reached home at about almost 4:00am plus when j was feeding Javier ... He bought noodle for me, so he waited for me to settle Javier and then eat with me ... 

Silly hubby ❤️ but I went to eat with hubby first and than went back to settle Javier :( hubby just went for work, poor thing ... Missing hubby so much ❤️❤️❤️

Tireeeeed already :(

Time have already passed 12:30am now ... Finally get to rest on bed but I guess Javier going to wake up soon :( so tired :(

(Throwback photo of Jerald having fun, when the time me and hubby brought him to City Square Mall ^,^)

Omgggg~ I'm so tired!!! Just settle Jerald, put him to sleep ... MIL ask for help as she's tired but Jerald still doesn't want to go for bed and yet still playing ... Sighhhh~ so I have to go settle him although I'm tired and I'm speechless :(

Feeling sleepy already but still die die wanted to blog lol

Full Moon Festival ^,^

It's Full Moon Festival today ~ Sunday, 27/09/2015 :) 月圓人團圓~ 美麗的一天!today my mum, elder brother and sister came to visit me OMG! I'm so glad that they came :) Wanted to Thank them specially to bring things over and spend their time to pay me a visit ❤️❤️❤️


Sister brought the last two pieces of D13 Durian Moon Cake for me which I bought for them ... Haha silly sister~ you should keep it for yourself and I'm fine not to taste and eat it :) But wanted to Thank you for feeding me hehe ❤️❤️❤️


My mum bought this for Jerald to eat haha "Moon biscuit"? 豬籠餅 :) but I don't think Jerald knew how to haha just for fun ... But hubby love it since he was a kid :) 


Have dinner together with my in laws ... Just some simple dish :) but while half way eating Javier woke up so I have to settle him ... But MIL speed up to finish her dinner so that she can take over me and let me have my dinner :) Thanks~

After dinner we ate banana haha~ and then I have fun with Jerald ^,^ so playful always haha ❤️❤️❤️ 

(Throwback photo in the afternoon)

After eating banana for a while Jerald poo poo~ hehe!!! Brought him to the toilet with MIL, I was outside the toilet while MIL wash for him ... So both of us told him that if you poo poo must tell us so we know haha 

"大便的時候要說大便~ 知道嗎?大便~ 大便~。。。" 

and then Jerald said "大便~" hahahaha! So cute of him, he really did pronoun the word correctly and accurately ^,^ 

Hello~ it's Sunday ^.^


Today woke up before noon but have our meal during noon time haha MIL and Yessica, hubby's cousin brought us brunch :) they went Bugis Guan Yin temple for praying ...


粿條滷面 ! Yummy~~~ it has been quite some time since I last ate it haha I think is when before I deliver :)


收規華 Memotary Laspe Of Reason ...
It's really an awesome, exciting and complicated drama haha! Somehow I'm loved it :) 張繼聰~ 好帥!haha~ really find this guy so talented ^,^

While eating we were watching the HongKong drama series :) hehe! I have finished the show before hubby, watch it on "Starhub Go" apps ... 


Once finished eating Javier woke up to have his milk after that I place him in the living room on a small floor bed ^,^ cause hubby is still watching the drama haha he wanted to finish the last two episodes before going for work ... Silly hubby~ ❤️❤️❤️


Hehe before hubby prepare for work and go out for work, I snap photos of hubby and Jerald ^,^ it's quite difficult for hubby to get close to Jerald without Jerald pushing hubby away haha :) ❤️❤️❤️

Lastly I wanted to thank my family for coming down today ^,^ really enjoy chatting, gossip and have fun with you all when every run you all came to visit ❤️ nothing can express my love to you all !


Thank you for coming down today although it's just two hours? I appreciate and enjoy ^,^ Love you all~ 

Enjoy my Saturday~ Thank you :)

Good evening~ :) feeling so happy today~ hehe! Nope~ I should said feeling very blissful and happy when every time my family specially came to visit me and my two Prince ^,^ really love them so much ❤️❤️❤️ really thankful for them to spend their time to visit me :)


Hehe my two Prince woke up quite early today and I didn't get to sleep :( no choice but to let hubby rest and sleep more as he have to work ... I know he's tired so most of the time when hubby is off I won't ask him to look after our two Prince ... Especially Javier cause when feeding, it takes sometime and so as changing the diapers haha I know hubby doesn't like to do this task ~


I only gave hubby easy job haha to look after Jerald! Our naughty boy hehe ^,^ play with him, feed him, chase him haha 

I know hubby sees me tired to look after the two princes and he wanted to help me too ... But I always told him it's ok I can handle and just ask him to get some rest ... Cause I rather I myself one person used up the energy than both of us used up our energy. I also told hubby about what I think of it too :)



Hehe me and hubby's first meal of the day~ yup! Always have brunch when every time we woke up, the time have already passed 11:30am. Reaching noon time too ... 

Both me and hubby really feeling tired and also tired of eating outside haha so we decided to eat instant noodle hehe



Yup~ hubby ask me to cook :( if I can stir fried and cook other than instant noodle I will do it just because I know MIL type, she doesn't really like ppl to touch her kitchen as she likes clean instead of dirty and oily haha

Just a small matter, a little dirty and oily she will clean up and wipe everything ... So I don't get a chance to cook for hubby and my two Prince ... This is my wish to cook rice and stir fried food for my family :( 

But I do believe in future I will have this days ^,^ I want to cook and feed my hubby, hubby's parent, my two Prince and my family till their tummy become big and round hahahaha

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