LEARN FROM IT !!! Pleeeeease :(

Today I’ve encounter something so sad and when by the time I’ve notice it I have already broken into pieces. Some times I just get so tired till I unable to handle my boys then I’ll just raise my voice towards them or feel so irritated easily. So recently I’ve fall sick so my emotional got even worst I believe, so today morning I’ve raise my voice towards DD which I’ve feel so sad and regret now. I saw the way he behaves in his classroom today when the teacher called him he just stands at a corner watching his friends playing and dancing. I’ve totally learn my lesson for his time! I will control my emotional, I will try my very best to handle my emotional altough I’m expecting now. I really afraid that the depression is here but I’m not treating it well.

Dislike Low Sugar :(

Hello time now is midnight 00:45am and yes I just have my supper, I went for bed at around 11pm? Woke up at midnight because of Low sugar, always feel so so dizzy and uncomfortable when I’m having Low sugar! For this pregnancy I’m feeling so so weak, didn’t have enough food for my meals but yet what I’ve eaten just cause my blood sugar high. I’m feeling so so stress and tiring, I wish I could just be a normal person, why am I fated to be like this!? It’s really sad to be a diabetic, I have it since I was 16 years old. But since after I’ve got married and have kids my result are getting from bad to worst. I feeling so so tired to stay focus on my diet and etc but now I’m in big trouble because I’m pregnant. Insulin three times per day, this making so fucking sick !!!

Big J you can do it !

Hello! I’m feeling so so tired now, almost spend my whole afternoon of the day outside with Big J. Brought him to Polyclinic for Development Assessments but we late for a year, because when Big J was three years old they refer us to the Specialist at KKH due to speech delay. Overall I believe that it’s all my fault for nothing paying more attention towards him, I didn’t know that I’ve to educate him so much at each age of stage, now I’ve knew a lot and really trying my very best and also putting lots of time lots of afford towards him, Just wish he could learn more, understands more, speaks more and put some efforts on writing. I really do hope Big J can do it because he’s really an active boy :(

Today he did a eyes check but he can’t pronouns the Alphabets as he don’t really recognise it, so in the end we got to go back after three months to do it again. I’m actually feeling kind of stressful that I’ve got to let him recognise and do some writing at the same time :( In the mean time I’m pregnant now and next year I’m going to deliver in the month of May, I’m actually worry about Big J during my confinement. Wishing and hoping that Big J could give in more afford for what he have to learn :) Mummy love you so so much~ you know that ! MUACKS!

It’s evening time now, brought Big J to City Square Mall to have his lunch (McD) and have some fun time at Time Zone haha! Hubby came to find us in the later time when we have already play for quite some time. , we went to get some drinks and bought McFlurry Oreo Ice Cream for Big J as well. We went NTUC before we head home so we reached home around 5pm plus and Big J fall asleep haha! I’m got to fetch Small J home soon ^^

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