Really don’t understand why!!!

I really don’t get it what’s wrong? Really don’t understand small little thing she got to show her stupid temper me us? I did the laundry for her today she was enjoying watching her TV, she let me this pregnant lady do laundry and put this laundry out of the balcony. I don’t mind doing the laundry but you really expect a pregnant lady with back injuried history to put all the laundry out the balcony. She’s just doing show for her Son to see and also said her own words to her Son but how she treats me even if I’m blind I could even feel it or even sees it.

Just now me and hubby came home and she just keep insisting to ask my Husband to eat the fried rice whereby she did not ask whether my Husband wants or not. She’s like just keeping forcing my Husband eat eat eat faster eat, seriously what the hell is wrong with this old women. I knew that he can’t eat because he was so tired and kind of full but she just insist him to eat then I fight for my Husband I say he wanted to rest first think unable to eat also then she just show off her big temper. Seriously she thinks that she’s the queen in the house? NO! It’s because we give in to her and think for as cause she’s the only elderly in the house, even my Husband also cares about her more than his Wife which is me. I’m expecting the third one now which is already 4 months currently, but I just got treated so bad which makes me really wanted to leave the house with my two sons. 

I really can’t tolerate to live under the same roof with this kind of old people, so evil and inconsiderate. She even asked me whether I plan to go for abortion for my third baby when the starts I told her that I was expecting again. I did not mention it to my Husband what his Mother told me, I kept it to myself because I feel kind of surprised why would a women said this kind of things to a lady which is her DIL too!? Last Friday when I was taking a nap and my Husband was working afternoon shift and he say good bye to me before he leaves for work and then I was half awake. I overheard their conversation, she said that she feel so heartpain to see her Son so hard and the schedule is so packed that he can’t even get a good rest and sleep. She also say that her Son earned alone for the whole house to survive and in the first place ask me to do abortion but I don’t want.

What and how will you feel when you’re mil asked you to go for abortion for the third child just because she doesn’t wants to see her Son work so hard and tiring!???

LEARN FROM IT !!! Pleeeeease :(

Today I’ve encounter something so sad and when by the time I’ve notice it I have already broken into pieces. Some times I just get so tired till I unable to handle my boys then I’ll just raise my voice towards them or feel so irritated easily. So recently I’ve fall sick so my emotional got even worst I believe, so today morning I’ve raise my voice towards DD which I’ve feel so sad and regret now. I saw the way he behaves in his classroom today when the teacher called him he just stands at a corner watching his friends playing and dancing. I’ve totally learn my lesson for his time! I will control my emotional, I will try my very best to handle my emotional altough I’m expecting now. I really afraid that the depression is here but I’m not treating it well.

Dislike Low Sugar :(

Hello time now is midnight 00:45am and yes I just have my supper, I went for bed at around 11pm? Woke up at midnight because of Low sugar, always feel so so dizzy and uncomfortable when I’m having Low sugar! For this pregnancy I’m feeling so so weak, didn’t have enough food for my meals but yet what I’ve eaten just cause my blood sugar high. I’m feeling so so stress and tiring, I wish I could just be a normal person, why am I fated to be like this!? It’s really sad to be a diabetic, I have it since I was 16 years old. But since after I’ve got married and have kids my result are getting from bad to worst. I feeling so so tired to stay focus on my diet and etc but now I’m in big trouble because I’m pregnant. Insulin three times per day, this making so fucking sick !!!

Big J you can do it !

Hello! I’m feeling so so tired now, almost spend my whole afternoon of the day outside with Big J. Brought him to Polyclinic for Development Assessments but we late for a year, because when Big J was three years old they refer us to the Specialist at KKH due to speech delay. Overall I believe that it’s all my fault for nothing paying more attention towards him, I didn’t know that I’ve to educate him so much at each age of stage, now I’ve knew a lot and really trying my very best and also putting lots of time lots of afford towards him, Just wish he could learn more, understands more, speaks more and put some efforts on writing. I really do hope Big J can do it because he’s really an active boy :(

Today he did a eyes check but he can’t pronouns the Alphabets as he don’t really recognise it, so in the end we got to go back after three months to do it again. I’m actually feeling kind of stressful that I’ve got to let him recognise and do some writing at the same time :( In the mean time I’m pregnant now and next year I’m going to deliver in the month of May, I’m actually worry about Big J during my confinement. Wishing and hoping that Big J could give in more afford for what he have to learn :) Mummy love you so so much~ you know that ! MUACKS!

It’s evening time now, brought Big J to City Square Mall to have his lunch (McD) and have some fun time at Time Zone haha! Hubby came to find us in the later time when we have already play for quite some time. , we went to get some drinks and bought McFlurry Oreo Ice Cream for Big J as well. We went NTUC before we head home so we reached home around 5pm plus and Big J fall asleep haha! I’m got to fetch Small J home soon ^^

Good Night ...

Last day of 2017 October is about to end. I finally get to rest on bed at this hour, hubby went for work and it’s the third day that he work graveyard shift. He’s having a hard time to sleep and rest before he actually go for work, my poor little hubby! I let my boys go for bed after my Husband went out for work so it’s after 10pm, I settle my laundry once after my boys fall asleep. Glad that they go for bed early recently so that I’m able to rest early as well, I’m feeling so weak for this pregnancy when especially I caught a little bit of rain. Also I feel so tired easily and I have to take a afternoon nap or else at the end of the day my emotional will be so bad. Just recently I feel so tired that I threaten my Husband for letting me to and die and I didn’t did that for purpose, I was really in a very bad mood and I can’t hold my emotion. I’m worry about myself actually ...

Maybe I should try to get more rest but excluding if I go for work, no choice. Just hope I could tolerate so many things through this pregnancy till I deliver which is next year month of May. Tomorrow Big J have appointment at Polyclinic in the late morning so means that Small J is going for school alone, oops! Hope I’m able to fetch Small J home early so that he won’t feel lonely hmmm! But it doesn’t seems that he really wants to go home when every time I went to fetch them haha! Hope he’s getting used to the school environment and get along with the Teachers and friends. Alright I shall say Good night~ :)

Big J's Advanced Birthday Celebration

Making a throwback post of my elder son 4th birthday this year, advanced celebration with my family. (30/09/2017)

I went hougang mall to get birthday cake, bought it from Polar cake shop. 

We celebrate at night :)

Wanted to thank my family for the celebrations, the love and dotes for the boys. MUACKS!

Last day of October ...

Waiting for this day for quite sometime haha! cause Government is giving us $200 but sadly that it's not for everyone ... I wish that I could at least save $100 for my confinement savings, yes I'm pregnant and it's already 3 months now. It's was an unplanned pregnancy and same goes to my previous two pregnancy, really didn't expect to be two years apart for this pregnancy. Hope I could be stronger than before ...


At this hour there's a NEA person came for mosquitoes check but the worst is my MIL refused to let the person to enter the house. I'm really totally speechless, just check and take a look what's so trouble some!? Really don't understand why and what her mind is thinking of, it's like she did something wrong and scare the person to enter the house and check.

One more thing, yesterday there's a dumpster contractor came to knock on our door and ask whether we would like to change the dumpster as our area of flats is really old. Our area just got replenished from the start of the year and did some floor replacement and etc to make the area of flats look well and cool. But my MIL just can't stop asking whether the person is a stomper and keep commenting about the payment. But lucky my husband is still home and not yet out for work ...

I doesn't like my MIL brother to do and repair any of the house things, so lousy and expensive. My MIL is to silly to ask for him in the first place, in the end the house doesn't really look like a house at all. So weird!

Happy (Lunar) Birthday to small J :)

It's a Sunday and hubby got his off day :) Was planning to go Boon Keng to get dinner and cakes while the boys are habing their nap. But after me & hubby got changed and ready to go out, this time Big J woke up from his nap haha! so we've got no choice but to bring him along with us then.

Went Swee Heng to get Small Rainbow mini cakes for the boys as we can't bow candle yet because FIL passed away and haven reach one year yet.

MIL gave Small J money as we also unable to give red packet cause we haven reach one year.

Happy Birthday to me ^.^

This year birthday celebration, I've got the fullest birthday ever after I've got married and have kids. Got a total of 3 celebration haha! First is 8th July on a Saturday, my siblings surprised me with a chocolate cake ♥ Wanted to thank my elder brother & sister for the surprised cake, love you all so much!

Small J saw the cake and keep wanting to touch it so me and sister let him join in to take photo together haha! Big J was sleeping at that time.

Also wanted to thank sister for this year birthday gift haha! still wanted to thank you although you have no much idea what to get for me. Love you! MUACK~

Secondly is on the 10th July, Monday I went on a date with my sister. We went Karaoke and shopping till late night as my hubby took leave so I doesn't need to rush home and fetch the boys on that day. We meet at Bugis Junction and went Karaoke.

Ordered some snacks food and took selfies, photos in the Karaoke room haha!

After singing session we went Bugis Junction for shopping, bought earring and ear stick >.< and also went Watson to get some facial cream and etc ...

While on the train I took selfie with sister before we separate our way home :) LOVE YOUUUUU! to the end of the earth hehe! Thank you so so much for all your love and time ♥♥♥

Lastly is on my acutal birthday hehe! Hubby brought me out and we went Karaoke too ^.^ Love you! hubby~ thank you for always not forgetting to take leaves and off on my birthday every year ♥♥♥ Love you to the end of the moon MUACK!!!

On the following week I've got another surprises from my primary school friends! I really didn't expect it (tears~)! Thank you Zuhairah, Eileen and Hadinah although it's all Zuhairah's idea to get me birthday gift this year! I'm really so glad and touched by them ;) Thank you all so so much my dear!

Happy Anniversary! 2017

This year Wedding Anniversary I baked mini cupcakes for us :) Hubby got to go our for his meeting so I stay at home to do some baking. It doesn't look great and perfect but I still love baking ^.^ It taste good actually haha!

Hubby! Happy 4th year Wedding Anniversary~ Love you to the end of the moon ^.^ Hope our family will filled with more love and happiness than before. MUACK!~

Advanced Mother's Day Celebrations

Throwback post for yesterday :)

Went FairPrice in the afternoon to get some groceries for dinner.


My father bought durian ^.^ cause it's a early celebration for Mother's day. We all loves to eat durian except for my elder brother haha!


My sister cooked dinner. Japanese curry and corn soup are so yummy haha!


Didn't get any cake this year for mother's day, just simple dinner and favorite durian haha! wishing my mum all the best for her health <3 muack="" p="">

Friday, 12.05.2017

THANK YOU! to my one and only Hubby!~ 💋❤️

This day when me and MIL brought the boys out and on our way waiting for the traffic light to cross and go for school. I saw the sky is already dark and I snap a few photos of it, really it's kind of early to rain and it might rain for the whole day and was kind of worried. Because the day before I've already planned wanting to bring MIL out for a walk and treats her to eat McD Chocolate cone ice cream. Which I've gone discount from the surprised app.

So really glad and thank god that the rain slowly stops and we headed out to take bus over to NEX mall. I wanted to get a toaster oven and just nice a day that it's hubby's off day so I get hubby to help and look out which brand of toaster oven if better


Tadaaaaa~ the bottom photo is the oven that hubby bought for me, I'm really so thankful! Love oyu so muchhhhh hubby hehe! It costs $89.90 and we took cab home as we bought some other stuff and also the boys diapers haha!

When we got home we did make a fast one to clear and arrange some space for this new oven, wanted to thank hubby for this oven and his help, so as MIL for helping out too. Wanting to get a oven it's because I wanted to bake some cupcakes or muffin for my upcoming Crew outing, as I've quite a lot of leftover cupcakes cases. What I need is to get those ingredients that I need for the cakes or muffins. A busy month haha!


Thank you Hubby! hehe! Love you so so much~ Although Mother's Day is here but you did not mention that you'll get anything for me. So I'll just take it that this oven is the gift for me on this year mother's day haha! It's alright to get anything, the most matter is to get something we really wanted and it's useful.

I know hubby won't get me any roses, cakes or romantics stuff because he's not that romantic and thoughtful person of getting gifts hahaha!

Saturday, 29/04/2017

This day my Aunt (姑妈) came over to my parent house, she reached before me haha! She bought quite a lot of food for AMK, Laksa! LoMee (卤面)! and Roasted Duck! Didn't get to take photo too bad. But In the afternoon around 3pm plus we all went Compass One together except DD as he is sleeping and my father to look after DD at home.

Me, my elder son, my Aunt, my Mum, My sister, brother. We took bus over to Compass One, we straight away went to Cold Storage to get some stuff and groceries for dinner. I intend to cook haha! but after shopped for groceries my Aunt wanted to eat KFC so we went, meanwhile my elder son keep making a fuss and keep asking for McD ice cream. So I've got no choice but to get a McFlurry over to KFC and let him eat it, but in the end he falls asleep in the cab when we went home after eating.

A few experience mummies and teachers also says that, whenever a kids is making a fuss, it means that they are really tired already and wanted to sleep actually.


Monday, 24/04/2017

This first day of the week I went for work and I've worked four days straight. I chiooooong all the way although it was really so tiring after I've got home but still got to rushed home to fetch the kids with my MIL. I've got to feed one of them and then got to look after them while my MIL settle some household.

Was really so tired but hopeless to speak up anything for myself towards MIL, she wants me to go back for work, she wants me to fetch the boys early. sigh~ nothing much to say, really such a sad life.


But I told myself and make sure that I've got to eat my meal before I really go for work, starts work. Really need that energy to earn those stupid money ...


Sunday, 23/04/2017 [THROWBACK]

This day it's the day my KL Aunty and her daughter went back to their hometown, which I'm unable to send them off to Airport. Morning I brought my boys to the nearby playground and all by myself, my husband is busy I think, can't really remember. My MIL is settling the laundry and the boys are making noise, DD keep wanting me to wear his shoes for him and bring him out. Korkor also keep wanting to go out too, so I brought them out together without informing my husband and MIL, cause they hack care hahaha!


They were having so much fun and I'm really so glad that I've actually brought them out haha! shortly my husband came to join us cause he and MIL was worry that I can't handle two all by myself, it's alright! I'm strong on the inside.


After about and hour I guess and we headed home ... Hubby brought along some cash so that we could buy lunch before heading home.

My sister sent me this photo, their farewell lunch with my Aunt and I guess that they cooked again. Almost the same dish? Also my father side eldest Aunt came over to my parent house as well.


Really hope in future they're able to come out to SG and gather with us ...

Friday, 21/04/2017 [THROWBACK]

This day, is my mum's birthday. I meet up my sister, mum and KL aunt with her daughter for lunch and also brought them to Vivo City for a walk and the view outside to take some photos. Firstly I meet them at Plaza Singapura and we went Just Acia for our lunch. Mum did mention to me that she wanted to go Just Acia few days before her birthday so I told sister and we discussed and decides where to go on my mum's birthday.


Photos at the bottom, we took the photos at HarbourFront views. I uploaded this two photos that looks the best haha! That tall girl is my Aunt daughter, really have grown up so much and I really have a good time with her and my Aunt for that few days. Brought them out for a walk too, I cancelled my work schedule just wanting to bring them around Singapore. But somehow I didn't make it to bring them over to Sentosa, really hope in the future I'll be able to bring them to tourist places around Singapore.



Wednesday, 03.05.2017

This day I went Kovan wet market with my mum. I have my breakfast before I meet my mum because I was really too hungry. Send my boys to school and my MIL go for Boon Keng market so I went home and prepare to go out and meet my mum. Have McD for my breakfast, I ordered Sausage Muffin instead of Sausage Muffin with Egg haha! I was afraid that I'm unable to finished the whole meal, ordered Green Tea for my drink.

I have my breakfast at Boon Keng McD and took MRT to Kovan and meet my mum after having my breakfast. Went for wet market to get fish, corn and vegetables, after wet market we returned to the mall for toilet before we go NEX mall haha


My mum was really wanting to get a good and comfortable shoes as she saw her sister shoes, which the one who came to SG and stay for a week with her daughter. So I told her that I'll bring her to the store and take a look for shoes that she wants, in the end she wants the one that same with her sister haha! Cost $89 after 50% discount of $100+, I paid the shoes first and then my brother and sister return me the amount to me.


After buying the shoes for her we went NTUC and the have our lunch together before going home. I ordered Japanese bento and eat together, at first my mum wanted to eat Mix Veg Rice but to me it's really kind of expensive. I rather she have something tastier hehe!


Saturday, 06.05.2017

I've always eat more food on Saturday than usual days haha! cause my family always get to feed me on this day, they really loves me and dotes me still and same to my two boys hehe! We always look forward to every Saturday ^.^

Alright, this is a post of last Saturday, I get the chance to head out and buy food when two of my boys are having their afternoon nap. I went Compass One to get some fast food, bubble tea drinks and of cause dessert hahaha! MOS Burger, Cup Walker, and Nine Fresh ...

This time I bought the dessert, me and my sister taste the durian and it's kind of sour. It makes me think for a second thoughts whether I should buy it again in the future haha!



The best part is that I get to eat food that my mum and sister cook although some times I doesn't really used to the taste of the food they cooked. But I'll just eat no matter what because it's really a blessed to be serve by my family when I'm already married haha!

Sister cooked tomato fried egg, this is the tomato egg that I've seen mostly outside the food store. But for MIL she will peeled the tomato skin, cut into slices and then chopped into smaller pcs and it's more like a tomato omelette.

Sister also cooked stir fried egg noodle and this time with broccoli in it, really tasted good especially the broccoli hehe! Love it! so yummy :D


Lastly my mum cooked chicken curry and is way too spicy till we added quite a few table spoons of sugar and oyster sauce wahahaha! so so funny~~~


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