Saturday, 30th December 2017

My family bought a cake randomly as my Father requested, he said that it’s his “birthday. I was confused in the first place but then I went to my mum and she told me that year 2017 is my Father’s 59 years old, so to get rid of all the bad lucks we have to get a cake and blow the candles. Blow away all the bad lucks and unlucky stuff around ... 


My brother ordered a cake through food panda from Emicakes store. It’s cost $55.80 for the cake I think, it’s 15cm and there’s a $3 charges for delivery ...



Got my boys to be involved haha! They love birthday celebration and especially blowing candles! My cuties~ I’ve got quite a few photos but only decided to upload these two photos.

Belated Christmas gift for Hubby! ❤️

Yesterday I met up my Sister to accompany me to Bugis tempter and pray for the appointment the next day, pray for good result and everything to be smooth for me. I also get Sister to help me and choose the design of belt that I wanted to get for hubby as a Christmas gift. 

After praying we went to Bugis market which is on top of the hawker center, went to get some dry goods before going off to get the gift. After getting my goods we went OG to look for belt and thank god that there is sales going on hahaha! 20% off for the belt I got for hubby! :)




Got hubby a bradFORD brand belt, me and Sister choose the design of the belt. I did measure the inch of Hubby’s belt before I went out to meet my Sister ... After buying the belt we went to take bus off to BoonKeng and took train, as Sister is heading for work and for me I went to Farrer Park. I went daiso to get gift ribbons and gifts bag haha! After that I went to get dinner for me, mil and the boys and then I went home after that ...




There’s left over Christmas gift wrappers so once I’ve got home I wrap up the gift. But only during the late night when everyone is asleep I paste the ribbon and sticker, also place inside the gift bag...




I also wrote a letter to hubby before I go for bed haha! I also message hubby that I place something on the dining table and it’s for him ... so he will be able saw it when he came home from work during the midnight :) Hopefully he likes the belt haha! And he wear it today and go for work ! 

P.S : Sorry for my broken English XD

Thank you for the Christmas Gifts !!

Actually I wanted to make a post before I go for bed yesterday night but I was too tired and just fall asleep haha! After Christmas I still get to receive Christmas gifts from friends, feel so blessed and thankful! Appreciated~ 



ChoonYen mummy got me mask haha! I gave her Christmas gift on the pass Saturday, bought her big box of Merci Chocolate and bought some Pony colouring stationary for her granddaughter as well ... although I don’t do mask XD but still wanted to thank her for the token of her heart.



Wanted to Thank Farida for the bag and toys for my boys, she’s a Friend of my Sister, she’s really a kind and lovely lady! So Glad to know her :) I got her some wafer biscuit and a Starbucks Christmas Mug...




A guy from my house downstairs a Salon sir, got me the above things and I don’t know why he got to give me this haha! I believe it’s a limited edition and unable to get it elsewhere... I’ve got him a Christmas gifts too and that’s why he got me in return of the gifts haha! It was so cool~ 


This year I finally get to receive a Christmas card from one of my Friend! MeiHui! She’s really a secret santa haha! Thank you babe~ I miss you a lot too! Muack muack~!

Merry Christmas! 聖誕節快樂~

Merry Christmas to everyone in the world! Some other countries are snowing at this holiday season but for Singapore it’s raining today ... The boys went for bed early today as I believe they used up their energy haha! Today I didn’t get to stay at home but I meet up my family to go for some walk at City Square Mall :) so Glad that I get to spend my Christmas with my family although it’s tiring but it’s worth to let my boys bond with my parent.





Took the photo of my boys unwrapping the Christmas gift which their father bought for them, Big J just keep wanting for Christmas present so in the end I gave it to them before their father wake up and give it to them ... bought toys for the boys actually hahaha!




Didn’t notice that Mummy ChoonYen would get Christ gifts for me and Sister ... because this year I bought her Merci big pack chocolate and some stationery stuff for her granddaughter. She also bought one share for Sister as my Sister gave her a blue penguin bag from daiso for Mummy ChoonYen. I’ll be giving the mask to my Sister cause I don’t do mask at all haha!



Would like to thank someone for getting Christmas gifts for me and boys as well! I love the bag because I seldom buy bags already or even to think of buying. I scare to waste money or even take home space haha! Farida thank you for your kindness I’ll remember your concern and love towards me and my boys ! 

I’m so tired and sleepy right now but before I end my post I just wanted to wish everyone in the world a very Merry Christmas! And a Happy New Year soon ~ haha!

聖誕節快樂!메리 크리스마스 ❤️ 
(2017) ^.^ Good Night...

Throwback on my Uncle’s birthday

Making a throwback post of 16th December, Saturday it’s a small celebration for my dearest Uncle’s birthday. His actual birthday is on the 15th December, Friday...

We have steamboat for lunch and dinner hahaha!!! Such a pity that I forgotten to snap photo LOL! In the afternoon I meet my Friend to collect Christmas gift, I was so surprised that a few of them got me Christmas gifts !!! AiLin, Ying Jing and Paulyn, they are my secondary school classmates. They even bought gifts for my boys as well! Such a bless~ 
Went to get a cake after meeting up my Friend, i was walking around the mall and thinking what can I should get so in the end I got Strawberry Shortcake from :)

I also took red wine sauce from MIL to cook with chicken for my family to it, but so sad that I did not snap a photo of it. It’s a traditional home made red wine sauce from my MIL ... 






Saturday feast ...


Making a throwback post of Saturday, it’s a family day and Sister cooked dinner while I’m out to help hubby get some stuff. I went Waterway Point, bought Sushi from Fairprice but forgotten to snap photo haha. That day randomly I feel like having the stir fried noodle so I went out to get it and meanwhile I help hubby to get his stuff too. I would like to say a big THANK YOU! to Sister for the dinner! I’m going to put on weight soon with all your delicious food hahaha!



I’ve also bought the durian puff at Waterway Point, just thought maybe some dessert to feel it more like Christmas season haha! Although we didn’t get to celebrate for Christmas together this year ...


I have 3 pieces of the durian puff! Omgggg! I just can’t hold myself haha!!! My blood sugar confirm hiiiiiiggggh~


I went out in the afternoon after a nap to help hubby get some snacks for his store, he wanted to pack goodies bag for his crews on this Christmas. He also bought gifts for his management team as well, the gift is when me and hubby went out at the late night to NEX mall on the last Friday. That Friday we went for school events at Gardens by the Bay so after we got home for a while the boys fall asleep so we decided to head out and get some gifts. 

In the first place we thought we will get to buy things from FairPrice but in the end there’s nothing we could get for gifts and goodies bag. Because hubby wanted to get the candy cane but it’s totally sold out so we went off . Before leaving the mall I went to take a look at Starbucks which I also wanted to get Christmas gifts for Sister.

At last we bought something and it’s from Starbucks, we bought Christmas edition jar and total we bought 9 of it hahaha! It’s having a 50% promotion off and so worth it!


That Saturday night after the boys went for bed I pack 70 bags of goodies bag for Hubby’s store crews. Two days straight that I’ve stay up late night to settle Christmas stuff and gifts. Friday night I settle Hubby’s gifts for his managers which I wrote Christmas cards, I also help him to pack separately in case for mixing up and confusion.

2017 Christmas Eve ...

Hello! It’s Christmas Eve today and I stay at home with the boys and my MIL. Feeling so disappointed and sad once again that I’ve got to stay at home on this holiday season, hubby is always busy working. Hubby is tired I know but I’m just feeling so disappointed and sad down the years recently, especially this year which I’m pregnant with the third one. Next year will be even worst that I don’t dare to imagine, there is changes for Hubby’s current job which makes him stress even more and tired even more ...

He is my Husband of cause that I’ll feel heart pain and sad to see him work so hard to support the family but in the other point that he’s too tired to bother me and the family or even the house ... If I’m not pregnant now I’m willing to give in all I have to for this family but I’m living like a zombie almost everyday, there’s like no tomorrow for me. Most of the time I really do regrets for being so stupid like an idiot to make myself ended up like this ... I hate my life so badly !


In the late afternoon I uploaded this photo of my boys to show my love for hubby. Uploaded on IG and FB to thank my hubby for his hard work and we love him a lot! Although I’m disappointed somehow ...


We went Gardens by the Bay with the school and it’s kind of chaos! The place is really cooling, beautiful and cool but didn’t get the chance to take photo as the boys just can’t stop moving forward and running every where. 

Good Night ...

Done releasing my sadness and I’m good now. I’m actually glad that there is somewhere I could say it all out from the deep of my when how sad and heartbroken I am ... Just got to go for bed and tomorrow is another day ... Good Night !

现在觉得的很痛苦…

真的好累。 时间已经要接近深夜了可是我现在很痛苦!突然间觉得我活着真的好累,总觉得为了别人而勉强地活下去。为了自己的家人和孩子只能好好活着,可是活得好痛苦!

现在真的是需要我老公的陪伴和爱护,可是这一年来他都在忙着他的事业而我也从来都不埋怨。问题是我现在已经怀了第三胎,家里的老人家,小孩还有一些家务事我都需要负责的。下个星期我就满五个月了可是老公说第五个月的产检没办法和我一起去,我就有点不高兴了也生气了。他就说我为什么我要对他这样子,那你有没有想过你和你妈妈是怎么样对待我的。一切的一切我都忍了,该做的也都该做了!你们还有哪里不满意?

真的好多时候觉得好累,没做什么也都觉得好累好累。为什么!为什么我的人生会这个样子?我的命运为什么会这个样子!我真的不明白!好不公平!

종현오빠, 잘랐어요! ❤️


종현오빠, 잘랐어요 ❤️ 鐘鉉歐巴你辛苦了,真的很捨不得你!你是多麼棒多麼有才華的藝人,希望你一路好走。永別了!... JongHyun-uh, I’m feeling so heart broken to see you just leave like this but glad that you’re not suffering anymore. May you Rest In Peace, Farewell~ 

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Most of the time when my emotional changes which I don’t even know myself, I just wish to cry and sometimes will cry out loud. The sadness and hurts just can’t hold it and so as the tears just keep flowing non stop, most of the time I wish to be alone but actually I’m alone. I wish to be alone from all the things that I’ve to face and settle every single day! Every single minutes! I just kept feeling so tired whereby I didn’t do anything much. I can’t take the stress to live with my MIL, my Husband and my kids! I’ve no idea why I have to live like this and why I deserve all these shit whereby it’s totally not my business at all ... but I just can’t reject and forcing myself to do what people asked me to do, I’m really tired actually but they’re just so selfish to only think for themselves ... I have no idea why there’s such evil and selfish people even exist in the world, why are they so cruel and disgusting!!! Really can’t accept their shit!

Feeling so depress ...

At this timing I’m feeling so frustrated, irritated! I can’t control my emotional, I’m feeling so so tired so so lost. I have been feeling so regret for what I have become now through the whole year... I regret for being so naive to be with current Husband in the first place when we starts to date or not I will not ended suffering like this. I just have no idea why I have all these thoughts in my mind through this whole year, I’m feeling so tired no matter what. I feel that there’s no one that I can approach to cure my invisible illness, I’m so stressful actually.

I feel so depress that I didn’t really go on social media, post on Instagram which I used to be or even play games. I didn’t have the energy and didn’t even thought of playing games and posting on Instagram. I can’t help myself for feeling so depress, I find no one and no ways to solve the problem I’m facing ... 

There’s a lot of things and problems I would like to speak out really a lot !!! Recent years I’ve also find it no point to speak it out to my Husband as I feels that he doesn’t wish to listen or accept what I’ve told him ... which why I’ve ended up so depress ... 

Really hope everything’s a dream ...


Tomorrow will be the wake, as I read news that it will be a private wake without social media and fans. Feeling so heart pain to see JongHyun suffered and then in the end he still unable to fight the devil inside him. There’s really no one there to save him and help him... Although I don’t understands Korean and since I’ve got married and have kids I seldom chase after artist like I’ve used to be when I’m still single. I just scroll through the Facebook to catch on some of their latest updates and news, but I do still really love those artist that I’ve used to support and love so much. I’ve also notice that actually JongHyun writes songs and was expressing himself that he needs help and hope people could notice it and save him on time... In the end he still unable to fight! Depression is really a serious matter! I believe I have but I think of my kids and my family some times which distracts me from the devil inside me trying to beat me down ... Accompany and love the people who feels lonely and usually having a hard time going through their life, everyone is trying hard to survive for their loved ones and their life. People feels tired really! Cares more with those people you used to love ...

One thing I totally have no idea why there’s people so nasty to comment about it when there’s a lot of people already feeling so heart broken with someone they love that have passed away. It’s a life that is gone, a beautiful soul that just gone like this. Really such a pity but really have no idea why there’s still people wanting to comment such bad words and negative comments. Can’t they just keep all those comment to themselves, one fine day they will experience what others are going through....

(Images credit from the media)

You did great ! ❤️


You will be missed ! Jonghyun Oppa ❤️❤️❤️ You did great ~ hope you’ve gone to a better place. Thank you so much for all your music, all the memories I have about you for years and thank you the most for your hard work to let Shawols see the best of you !



Really such a shocking news and I really can’t accept it! My heart had already broken into pieces! He was such a beautiful men and he really has a beautiful! Powerful vocal! Such a pity and wasted to lose this beautiful men! My heart is in pain and aching so badly ... May you Rest In Peace, I believe you’re in a better place now. You will be missed! Tears just can’t stop falling ... Stay strong to all who concern ❤️

Really don’t understand why!!!

I really don’t get it what’s wrong? Really don’t understand small little thing she got to show her stupid temper me us? I did the laundry for her today she was enjoying watching her TV, she let me this pregnant lady do laundry and put this laundry out of the balcony. I don’t mind doing the laundry but you really expect a pregnant lady with back injuried history to put all the laundry out the balcony. She’s just doing show for her Son to see and also said her own words to her Son but how she treats me even if I’m blind I could even feel it or even sees it.

Just now me and hubby came home and she just keep insisting to ask my Husband to eat the fried rice whereby she did not ask whether my Husband wants or not. She’s like just keeping forcing my Husband eat eat eat faster eat, seriously what the hell is wrong with this old women. I knew that he can’t eat because he was so tired and kind of full but she just insist him to eat then I fight for my Husband I say he wanted to rest first think unable to eat also then she just show off her big temper. Seriously she thinks that she’s the queen in the house? NO! It’s because we give in to her and think for as cause she’s the only elderly in the house, even my Husband also cares about her more than his Wife which is me. I’m expecting the third one now which is already 4 months currently, but I just got treated so bad which makes me really wanted to leave the house with my two sons. 

I really can’t tolerate to live under the same roof with this kind of old people, so evil and inconsiderate. She even asked me whether I plan to go for abortion for my third baby when the starts I told her that I was expecting again. I did not mention it to my Husband what his Mother told me, I kept it to myself because I feel kind of surprised why would a women said this kind of things to a lady which is her DIL too!? Last Friday when I was taking a nap and my Husband was working afternoon shift and he say good bye to me before he leaves for work and then I was half awake. I overheard their conversation, she said that she feel so heartpain to see her Son so hard and the schedule is so packed that he can’t even get a good rest and sleep. She also say that her Son earned alone for the whole house to survive and in the first place ask me to do abortion but I don’t want.

What and how will you feel when you’re mil asked you to go for abortion for the third child just because she doesn’t wants to see her Son work so hard and tiring!???

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