Just came back from AMK Hub hahas quite tired lor :P
Mummy sleep all the way sia till I wake her up or else we will miss stop worx hahas really lah Daddy and Mummy really veri de tired then mi lor Ke lian thats why i love them so much^^

Haix... still cant really forget that memories and it still in mai mind worx don know why lor ! Hope to forget faster cos like this to him and mi will be much better and oso lah to everyone too^^

Haix... T-T till now like this le so mani things happen on mi WHY!
After the result out I was feeling veri sad but oso cannot do anything only accept it...
That time I was really hope that mai love ones will be by mai side chat with mi, hug mi, joke with mi so that I won feel so down...
But... really lah all this things cant blame anyone only can blame myself not really to go cherish and make clear...

But at the end all of euu still came and see mi when the minute I saw euu all mai face started to have smile again^^ Thx to euu all!
But still hope I won give up so easily bahx... mai life will get more tougher, uneasy and uncomfortable!...
So hope that all mai angels will encourage and support mi when I really feel veri sad and down bahx^^ ...........

Finally lah... 2moro start work le^^ Should be happy de but don know why I become no feeling anymore le... I hope to find the answer one day....
I now feel veri sad and confuse... don know if wanna listen to mai parents to quit the job a not cos bout mai illness and is veri trouble some...
I know i promise euu all not to leave till the day I really cant go on but... no choice...
I oso don really wish to leave too but... I try to go on as long as I can ^^ alright?!

Hope euu all working with mi will happy then sad okie! ^^ I wanna see euu all smile worx! ^^ hahas...
And...erm.... hope euu all help mi when I needed ur help can? Cos I don know when I will collapses :P

One more thing the BBQ I think euu all held urself bahx^^ sry le I cant joy euu all hope euu all will enjoy without mi!? hahas...
Don worry I will give euu all present de^^ Is chrismax present... not really expensive lah just some easy things only lah^^ Hope euu all will like it den hahas...
Today quite early wake up lor 8.30am hahas cos need prepare thing...
Maybe the rest of mai life I need like this loh!? Early wake up prepare everything den....
Sian lor later need do house work T-T cos JieJie go work till quite late den Mummy veri tired so only left mi lor haha nvm lah often help doing things oso not bad mah^^

Later bout 5 to 6pm need go down mac find Terence give him thing...
And tell him and sign resign form! Hahas JUST KIDDING! bleah...
I where want leave I die die oso won leave all mai dearest frens behind de lah^^ hahas... and I oso don wanna make them sad but to see them smile when every time i see them^^
Its a good thing to see everyone face with smile hahas!...
But I will leave when time is up and if really cant continue.... leave ar??? hmmm.... still veri long leh cant even think till so far hahas^^ :P

Hahas Christmas coming le so happy sia ^^
Christmas that day hope everyone can come for the BBQ lor^^ But I wonder if they take leave already not? ><"

Haix... sian liao lor now mai whole life change le now time is veri important to mi le cant waste must see time every moment...
In school will be more complicated and trouble some lor dots! Hate school so much sia bleah!!!

Hahas ytd veri funny lor after discharge liao Mummy, Daddy and mi at hougang mall buying things mah den I was msging JieJie den got one msg is veri de... hahas... she ask mi if got "da bao" for them cos home nth to eat mah den I tot was the big bao mah but is not worx! haha
Is 打包 den i was like... 大包 and 打包 , 傻傻分不清楚 lor! hahas...
Hahas so happy finally can come home le^^ haha
Haix... still will have some bad news lor... nvm lah things happen le jiu happen le cant turn back so the only thing to do is ACCEPT it lor...
So now mai life everything totally change le and now mai time really cannot waste!

So funny lor the day [24/11/08 , Monday] go appointment evening jiu need hospitalize lor till today lor^^
There can be mai home liao hahas cos not the 1st time staying there mah^^ [:P]
So touch and thankful lor all mai Mac frens come and visit mi^^ and bought mi so mani things lor! ai yo don waste money buy all this mah euu all share money buy one thing jiu okie le^^
But still wanna thanks euu all lah^^

Adele, Lisa, Feng Ming, XinYi, Fredrick, Shawn, Alvin, Eileen, JunJie, Marmie, Ying Jing, Dominic Uncle, Gu Ma, mai baobei Jie and lastly of cos is mai PARENT^^
Thank you so much to come and pei mi, chat/play with mi, concern mi! ^^
So glad that I have all of euu and to live in this world!
Thank god that I have all this dearest, cute, handsome, pretty, kind, funny, supportive frens!!!
I LOVE EUU ALL AND NV FORGET EUU ALL DE!^^

Haix.... sad thing coming up la...
maybe need to leave mac worx cos of mai illness T-T Ai yo oso no need so serious to leave mah rite mummy/daddy?!
Just control and notice the time and everything jiu can liao I noe euu all scare I forget but I will try mai best to remeber and do everything on time de^^ okie?!
Pls let mi stay I really don wish to go lah T-T

Miss mac veri de much lor T-T
So wish I can faster go back work sia!
MAC I WILL BE BACK DE! ^^ hahas...
Hahas morning everyone!^^
Just eaten breakfast... actually don wanna eat de but mai mummy bought liao I don wanna waste it jiu eat it up lor hahas...
Haix... sian sia early morning wake up feel so uncomfortable feel like vomit lor....
Now really de sick liao sia having slightly fever, cough and headache worx...

Feel like crying is really de feeling veri bad sia hope 2moro manger to go work bahx^^
Later bout 1pm plus jiu need go appointment le... Feeling a bit scare lor of cos^^
See how doctor said lor hope can continue work bahx^^

Just now read through quite a numbers of blog feeling a bit erm... confuse and blur bahx...
Ai yo I tell euu hor ur tiger meimei said she will leave the store when I wanna leave that means we will leave together but now is not de right time to do this mah...
And some more euu already promise us not to go le worx and yet euu still wanna.... haix... But if euu really wanna leave must tell us and oso must tell us why worx okie?^^

Euu leave is not really a good thing for them lah they really need euu mah... I just maybe cant continue cos euu know lah^^ hahas...
But I oso really don wish to leave just need to depends bahx...
Just hope everything will be fine lor.... But by the way hor euu wanna leave hor make mi feel like euu don wanna see mi and wanna avoid mi worx?!!!
But said true de lah^^ ....
Euu talk to mi I really feel that we are fren but euu some times I look at euu or euu look at mi den [we] turn away make mi remember that worx...
So I hope we can just be normal and chat like that lor I just wish like that lah nothing else le^^

At last lah still wanna tell euu DON LEAVE they really need euu include ur tiger meimei don let all the bad ppl bully them so euu must stay and protect them mah rite?!^^
I maybe need some time to settle some thing so will not see mi quite often worx all mai dearest frens^^
This thing is veri important is bout mac hope euu all will support mai suggestion bahx^^
When the time is her I will tell euu all de so must be happy for mi kie I don wanna see cries faces and no smile on euu all faces! okie!? ^^

Marmie I miss euu sia fell like going out with euu lor T-T I oso got alot alot things to tell euu^^
Really hope that one day can see euu again and chat with euu^^
Last long with daddy hor ^^

Seeing euu all[dearest frens] having smile on face everyday it make mi feel mai day sunshine! really... ^^
Everyday will pas and need time to pass with smile and sad...
Smile...
Will make all ppl around euu happy and will have smile just like euu have^^
It make the day good...
Sad...
Just feel frustrated wanna cry, cant do anything....
ppl see euu don wanna talk to euu cos maybe will scare euu angry or sad to recall ur memories...
This is how lifes everyday [maybe^^] so why don have smile on ur face and don feel stress like this will have fun...

K lah need go prepare for everything le BB got to go le worx^^
ALL DEAREST FENS.... I WILL REMBER EUU ALL DE DON WORRY HAHAS^^
Okie lah.... really lor take care when I not around euu all^^
protect urself okie^^
MUACKS! love euu all lots lots lots!!! ^^
Hahas just came back from work lah....
Still the same lor feeling so sian but now mai better liao cos he seem starting to talk to mi le make mi feel that euu not avoiding mi and really are frens^^
When nv talk make mi feel sad and like we are enemy...
But now quite happy lor cos really make mi feel that we noe are really fren le^^

Is damn de tired lor cos I end work at 5pm mah den after that I go packed condiment den jiu packed till bout nearly 9 lor hahas...
Haix... sad thing coming le IS 2MORO liao lor!
Go for KK appointment haix every year must go lor veri sian sia...
Go there inject, x-ray, scan or others thing lor depends lor ^^

Really veri happy to see euu all smile today and get the chance to see euu all^^
Euu all are the BEST! ^^
Think Tuesday going to work bahx... maybe... I hope so hahas
Start work from 3 to 11pm haix so long lor sian sia T-T
Hope euu all got work lor den I will not feel lonely but will happy to see euu de ^^ hahas...

K lah really need go eat mai dinner lah mai parent wanna mi go eat liao hahas...
Got to lah^^
ALL MAI DEAREST FREN TAKE CARE LOTS!!! ^^
Must remeber mi hor i no need remeber euu all de ^^ haha...
Cos euu all already in mai heart le^^
........................................
能看到你我感到很开心...
看到你... 会让我觉得很心痛!...
能和你说话让我感到很幸福^^ ...

Dots lor euu promise us won go de lor at de end still wanna do it! Break Promise worx... Euu ar like this will make ur three ladies tudi sad de lah haix...
Why wanna leave worx can tell mi mah?!
Mani of us really don wanna see euu leave lah... know/see euu leaves will only make us sad and wanna cry but I know is ur choice I will respect it^^
But hope euu won forget us and must come visit us worx^^... hahas...

Mai four cutie angels [Adele, Liza, XinYi and Feng Ming...] I really don wanna see euu all sad but to see euu all have smile on ur face everyday! ^^
Just let mi have a veri nice, good and peaceful
memories of all of euu can mah?
I don have smile is okie de I just wan euu all to be happy alright!?
Mai fren happy and happiness is mai most happier thing den everything so hope to see euu all smile the next time I see euu all worx^^ I don wanna see cry faces okie hahas^^

I know euu all wanna mi to forget everything but it is quite impossible... But I really will try mai best...
I know that he will going oversea for bout one month so... of cos lah will miss this best fren de^^
Think the others oso will de lah...
So... hope and wish that 2moro is not the last day to see all mai dearest and baobei frens bahx...

Haix... don know wat to do sia now is really de tired liao cant really wan go sleep but still thinking of that...
Really feel veri uncomfortable!... Don know why feel like begin alone now don wanna talk, eat, go out play... just don wanna do anything just lie at bed have a big cry...
CRY! really make mi feel better which is wat I doing every night before sleep...

I know lah he don like mi he still thinking of her^^
But don noe why she don like him worx? dots...
Ai ya I know lah love is veri selfish and can be cruel too... Don like jiu don like, like jiu like haix... don know wat is this sia hahas...
I really thing that the time he said wanna stead with mi is just only a moment crush bahx or maybe just replacement lor I don know and don wanna know better if not I really will get more hurt...
They three said he got really like mi before but I don know lah cos I just only know that I was veri happy when he ask mi for stead and I was oso 100% sure that I do really like/love him de^^ hahas...
But now is frens still not bad worx ^^

All mai dearest frens take good care lah!^^
Don worry lah I won quit de but must depend if I can continue working I oso don really wish to leave cos I have all of euu^^
Haix... here comes the second post of the day lah^^
Just now afternoon go mac chat with three of mai "Angel" Lisa, XinYi and Feng Ming and oso go find Adele see how she had been^^
She still the same SOOO cute! ^^ hahas... [no wonder he cant forget her...]

Haix so sad sia see them make mi remember of that memories...
Of cos lah cos they three are his TUDI mah^^
But the worst is 2moro he working too don noe if see him wat expression will I have and wat will happen to mi?...
Hope he 2moro won no show or late bahx^^
I scare I see him le will cry haix...

2moro working split shift sia so sian lor after work still need help pack condiments worx... nvm like this more good can make mi tired but sure still cant forget that
memories by making myself tired...
So is true... really don noe wat to do just only can continue hurting myself...
So wish that I have time to relax myself but so unluckily i don have much time... Everyday wake up jiu go work, reach home jiu bath le den sleep... Den if off jiu everyday at home doing nth only sleeping, watch television programs, listen to songs and use come to blog or wat lor...
MAI LIFE TURNING ****

Now really feeling veri lonely and boring...
Haix... need wait till Monday lah go see doctor hope that have illness den can stay at hospital more easily for mi to live bahx...
Anyway I already have lah just only need to prepare for OP if needed...
To cut away one of mai kidney which don really have much percent to have it inside mi...

Just like I said de take care of yourself EVERYBODY!
Its not worth it when it is too late for euu^^ cherish everything worx...
Don be like mi wanna cherish something but it just disappear just like that!...
Having frens is a veri important for all humans! Lifes turn BLACK when everything changes really!
Euu can/will do things that euu didn't expect so lifes can easily gone when euu not really a wake...

ALL MAI FREN... REALLY LAH TAK GOOD CARE AND CHERISH WAT IS IN UR HAND DON LET IT GO! RMB DON LET IT GO!^^
It will be a veri sad thing to lose a fren...
[ 我爱的人却不在爱我了...
但我很开心曾经拥有和你在一起的日子^^
希望接下来的日子的你...
是带着微笑过生活...
迎接幸福的到来过着新的生活^^ ]

Haix...Still thinking of that of cos haix don noe when den can totally forget it...
maybe... need more time or forever bahx...
REALLY.... really cant forget all the memories T-T

I really don noe wat to do so wish that got something for mi to do to make myself damn tired!
Every nite before sleep will think of everything den jiu T-T haix... really feel veri de uncomfortable! feel like keeping myself in the room big cry!!!
I REALLY DON NOE WAT TO DO!

Really hope all mai angel will be by mai side and pei mi^^ ....................
If not I don noe wat will happen to mi.....
Hope I will still have chance to see all mai frens! ........

Ai yo why all talk bout leaving mac huh! Ai yo yo... no need make thing till so big bahx hahas^^ ...
Just tak it as normal nth happen jiu can le mah RITE! all mai dearest fren?!
I don wanna see all mai dearest fren sad den cry jiu just one person wanna left leave this is not worth it I just hope all of euu to stay cos I really don wanna lose any fren! Euu all really veri important to mi REALLY! ^^ [T-T]

So hope euu[he] won leave euu all behind just bcos of this stupid problem okie^^
I noe he is really good and treat euu all veri gd just like euu all said de SHIFU & TUDI mah rite hahas^^
Wish to see all of us together again!
And... happily ever after!^^ hahas...

And one more thing THIS IS IMPORTANT HOR^^
Christmas Day Hope that we all will have BBQ party together so all must come cannot don come UNLESS... euu hate mi^^ hahas [bleah]
All mai dearest fren remember to take OFF worx^^

I really glad that I noe all of euu and have all of euu and euu too^^[euu should noe... yup thats euu le... no need think^^] to be mai frens^^
Hope euu won avoid mi let be fren again 好吗?^^
Euu ar I msg euu no reply to mi de -_-!!!

Dots... 2moro 22/11/08 should be our 1st month de but... hahas....
HEY! some more I already prepare present liao sia...
prepare for bout 2 weeks le leh make till mai hand wanna get cut off sia T-T

我已经深深的爱上你了! ]

这是无法改变的...
你叫我把你给忘了...
[ 这是很难做到的一件事!...
10月22号08年...
你说你很确定的喜欢我...
我对你有感觉也接受了你!

11月19号08年, 11点48分...
我最宝贝的你离开了我!
而让我感觉到很伤心, 很难过, 也很心痛!!!
为什么在我最需要你的时候你却离开我?!

我问你原因为什么要分手你却说....
你不配我, 不想伤害我...
而且还喜欢着她,忘不了她...
那何必当初呢!???

Yesterday is the worst day for mi... I and baobei end le T.T
Haix... nvm he have his choice I don blame him but I will still love/like him^^
EUU ARE THE BEST! NO ONE CAN REPLACE EUU DE!^^

I was shocked when he msg mi bout that den of cos cry lah or else kill myself meh hahas... haix... really lor.... veri de sad feel like dying...
nvm lah at least we still can be frens hope we will keep contact bahx^^
GOOD LUCK FOR UR FUTURE!^^

I will nv forget euu de euu already keep deep deep in mai heart le...
Like I said... 你是我永远的宝贝 ^^
I noe that we will nv patch cos euu are really truly and serious like her!...
Hope euu oso can find a better bahx and I will still be single till de day I forget euu [IMPOSSIBLE!!!]...

Saturday doing split shift den Sunday one shot... Haix.... feel so sian but nvm I still got others RVM frens ^^
ADELE THX FOR YTD CALLED AND CHAT WITH MI ^^
hahas so cute lor euu cry I cry de haha...
Haix.... sian sia this few days feel veri lonely and don wanna care anything... and don feel like living any more! T_T
Everything for mi is just NO! NO! NO! so irritating!!! WHY???!

On Sunday or Monday ar I T ot sure when lah I forgot liao hahas...
I was working split shift den working at night de that night is the most black face that I have ever seen! So mani ppl du lan at one person JUST ONE PERSON sia!
That black tall stupid face! bleah!
Cos I was working in the kitchen with others three crew/frens... den service in mah we four jiu abit chiong lor den some more no product how he wan us to out the product STUPID SIA!!!
Den I go cook 10:1 breef meat den I jiu burn dao mai finger lor...
I was the one standing outside de den he jiu shoot mi said "Inside got four person why mai product cannot out!" He so smart den come in help lah! wait the no customer liao den come in said mi BLEAH!!!

Den I was angry lah I don care him he scold mi NVM I don wanna the other crew in the kitchen to get scolded by that black faces too! Den I bear with him I just bear lor nvm de! Den after the crowd clear liao he pull mi out to do counter den I du lan mai whole face turn black sia mai mood is already not veri shine liao and yet ask mi go do counter wat the hell lor!

Den I jiu called Xin Yi do counter for mi hahas ke lian sia den I do her runner ^^
After that no customer again I wanna go behind drink water den that black guy walk towards mi den he bang to mi sia he purposly wan lor! feel like scolding him sia...
Den I jiu all de wait black face till I end work hahas...

Sian sia today need work till 11pm lor den 2moro and friday OFF! hahas...
Haix... 2day all de youngster in mac go chalet lor so good I oso wan mai parent every time like this de sia wait till last moin den said giv mi go den is already too late lor stupid sia... haix don go jiu don go lor I rather go work but I wanna go chalet just wanna relax myself mah dots lor...

Ke lian de Marmie she like got alot problem wanna tell mi sia hope can find one day go out with her and chat^^ MARMIE I NV FORGET EUU! ^^
So tired lor hahas^^ 2day sleep till 10.30am plus den wake up sia bleah...
Ytd late bout 5 mins for training at work there den YiHao called mi to treat everyone for lunch den I was like -_-!!!
Haix... forget it but at the end still joking de hahas... den bout to start liao Iswarn com and said wan tak mi out cos not enough crew den I T.T den oso no choice go work at the kitchen lor aft tht runner dots...

Aft a while Yihao jiu bring all his "students" go work at the counter or wat lor den jiu work till 12.30pm aft a while jiu end liao den I whole day not feeling well sia cos from morning till end training I haven eat and only drink water but drink liao feel like vomit sia hahas... Den YiHao jiu called someone to tak one hot milo for mi to drink hahas... den XinYi go went and giv it to mi hahas den we jiu go tak EMC den we all makan together lor ^^

Aft tht I jiu work all the way to 5pm plus lor so sia all the way headace lor dots lor T.T
Den finally can "go home" liao den I at there eat liao den rest don feel like going home den jiu sit thtere lor den Lu Bin came liao den told mi tht monkey got com work den I jiu wait till he com lor...
Bout half hour later he came liao den I jiu wait till he end work lor but meanwhile he working I packing condiments and some more is FOC[free of charge] den mai manager chase mi home sia cos this few days mani things gone missing dots lor like I wan take or steal their things lor so angry sia bleah...

Den I finish liao I jiu go out wait for him lor luckily mai three cutie friends are out side eating hahas... Den I reach home bout 12.30 plus bahx i tink hahas... cos I and monkey chat till miss the last bus den he called his father com and fetch him and mi home lor hahas so thankful hahas...
K lah got to logout liao mai bro wanna use com liao T.T
Finally got the time /chance to post le hahas^^
Really lor this days is really de tired and busy sia every morning wake up jiu go to work haix T.T
Yesterday and today morning go for training so as 2moro [last day^^ yes! haha] Actually not really that boring by seeing YiHao manager talk and see his slide show cos can learn alot and know more bout our jobs^^

Haix... sad lor 2day cannot see baobei wanna T.T liao lah!!! don know need wait till when den can see baobei sia...
Dots lor this coming weekend need do split again sure will veri tired de lor hahas but at least got things to do :P
Hahas finally got the chance to post le ^^ this few days keep working till veri late den veri tired till today can post lah yeah! ^^
Sunday working st nite which is Jason last nite so sad sure will miss his cute face de lor T.T but mi and baobei decide to buy something for him hahas and today is Joanna birthday worx hahas we oso going to buy a Winnie bear for her hahas...

That day I do Jason runner den got one veri America guy like hip-hop kind de talk oso like hip-hop den he order le I give him de thing tht he order den he suddenly said I KaWaYi sia den Jason smile dots... Sia lah pai seh leh :P

haix got to logout liao mai bro wake up wanna use com liao haix...

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